“But behold, verily I say unto you, there are many who have been ordained among you, whom I have called, but few of them are chosen. They who are not chosen have sinned a very grievous sin, in that they are walking in darkness at noon-day.”

D&C 95:5-6

“And what is the mother of all mysteries? That it really is noonday! There really is no darkness. Everything is working out perfectly for the good of all! But in order for it to work, it is not supposed to look like it is working!”

Max Skousen, Finding the Mark, Chapter 19, pg. 61

“I am the Lord, and there is none else, there is no God beside me: I girded thee, though thou hast not known me: That they may know from the rising of the sun, and from the west, that there is none beside me. I am the Lord, and there is none else. I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things. Drop down, ye heavens, from above, and let the skies pour down righteousness: let the earth open, and let them bring forth salvation, and let righteousness spring up together; I the Lord have created it. Woe unto him that striveth with his Maker! Let the potsherd strive with the potsherds of the earth. Shall the clay say to him that fashioneth it, What makest thou? or thy work, He hath no hands?”

Isaiah 45:5-13 KJV (see also JST Isaiah 15:18)

I am the Lord, and there is no other,
    besides me there is no God;
    I gird you, though you do not know me,
that men may know, from the rising of the sun
    and from the west, that there is none besides me;
    I am the Lord, and there is no other.
I form light and create darkness,
    I make weal and create woe,
    I am the Lord, who do all these things.
“Shower, O heavens, from above,
    and let the skies rain down righteousness;
let the earth open, that salvation may sprout forth,
    and let it cause righteousness to spring up also;
    I the Lord have created it.
“Woe to him who strives with his Maker,
    an earthen vessel with the potter!
Does the clay say to him who fashions it, ‘What are you making?’
    or ‘Your work has no handles’?
Woe to him who says to a father, ‘What are you begetting?’
    or to a woman, ‘With what are you in travail?’”
Thus says the Lord,
    the Holy One of Israel, and his Maker:
“Will you question me about my children,
    or command me concerning the work of my hands?
I made the earth,
    and created man upon it;
it was my hands that stretched out the heavens,
    and I commanded all their host.
I have aroused him in righteousness,
    and I will make straight all his ways;
he shall build my city
    and set my exiles free,
not for price or reward,”
    says the Lord of hosts.

Isaiah 45:5-13 RSV

The man who is eager and seeks to be your teacher, is not worthy of that position.

The greatest teachers do nothing more than have a discussion of ideas, and are careful not to force or lead you to any conclusions. They respect your individuality, intelligence and ability to discern truth. They show many sides of the issue refraining from moral judgments and allow you to evaluate them. They do not pretend to be gurus, they do not pretend to know all mysteries. It is evident that they are also on a journey of learning and discovery.

A false teacher will make you believe you need their authority, or some external authority or organization or building. A true teacher may use an organization or building for a time, but only until you understand what true authority is, and where it resides.

False teachers enslave to glorify themselves. True teachers want you to be free and give you everything necessary to be independent under heaven.

Truth may be discovered anywhere, including from false teachers who don’t comprehend what they have.

Every now and then, the sleeping need to be smacked to help them out of their stupor, to give them an opportunity to save themselves from ignorance.

If you’re seeking, studying or searching out of need, from a belief of something you lack, from fear of future punishment or losing out on some future reward or pressure from some other looming event or other form of haste, you’re still at the beginning.

If you fear to learn, explore and discover new ideas because you’re protecting the truth you have, then you don’t have what you think you do.

The truth is, most people are terrified of truth, and what it takes to obtain it.

Christianity is dead. What has become of it is a useless system for helping people “repent”. Repentance was never supposed to be “Oh, God please forgive me for my sins!” It was meant, as the word means, to have the individual “find the gold in the center of the target, as in archery.” (See Wikipedia Etymology of “Sin”, ἁμαρτία hamartia)

At the time it was taught, it had the opportunity to be potent. The apostles and early fathers taught for the times and mindset of the people they were among. Yet even among those people, teaching were handed down in a hidden manner.

Christ said he taught in an occulted manner (parables, metaphors) for the stated purpose that the spiritually blind would fall.

The Apostles taught in mysteries:

“Whereby, when ye read, ye may understand my knowledge [not a feeling] in the mystery of Christ… And to make all men see [know, understand] what is the fellowship of the mystery, which from the beginning of the world hath been hid in God [by design], who created all things by Jesus Christ.”

Ephesians 3:4 & 9

“But we speak the wisdom of God in a mystery, even the hidden wisdom [understanding, not a feeling], which God ordained before the world unto our glory… But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love Him.

“But God hath revealed them unto us by His Spirit, for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God… For who hath known the mind of the Lord, that He may in-struct him?  But we have the Mind of Christ.”

1 Corinthians 2:7, 9-10, 16

Origen was an early Christian father and taught what the budding mainstream church then, and Christian’s today would consider heresy, condemned under the label of “Gnosticism” (which means “knowledge of mysteries”).

In near modern times, Mormonism was established among a small segment of Christians. The primary thing Mormonism has going for it was a modern example of a person, in this life, coming into the presence of God. But after only a few years of appearing, its “followers” were declared to be under condemnation. Mormonism taught in an occulted manner. The Book of Mormon as the rest of the scriptures are full of key words and meanings that you can connect it you’re paying attention, but it’s very difficult and nearly obscure as the Bible, however what the Book of Mormon preserved–in the open–was the process of true repentance. It contains many examples of individuals who found the gold at the center and came into the presence of God, but even this was obscured by the modern leaders who preferred an interpretation that supported their priestcraft and false authority and required members to act in obeisance to their dead teachings. Mormonism was co-opted very early on by false and uninspired teachers and today it has become as dead as mainstream Christianity, that is, its worthwhile meaning can only be found if you’re dedicated and dig deep.

You may hear a system at the time it is preached or you may be born into a system, which has residual truths. But it is taught in a dead manner, and so not only do you have to find a system that will help you repent, or find your true center, but in order to do so, you have to overcome the philosophies of men and tradition and endure the complete destruction of your social and family structure and the unspeakable despair of an unknown future for your children. Only then, can you claim to know what faith is. You search your religion and break through truths one layer at a time, until what you discover really has set you free.

And while, near the end of that process, you may appreciate the ability to find and gather truth from any source, no one who is a source cares about the specific path you took to get there. It holds no meaning for them. No one understands you, and though, one of your deepest desires is to be understood and to connect authentically with other human beings, it remains unappreciated, misunderstood and judged to be evil, or worse: worthless, by everyone.

And so when someone asks if I’m anxious to teach, or be a missionary of some sort, the answer is “No.” While I’ve found great value, I would never wish this path and pain and loneliness on anyone.

“That learned man knew…how obscure truth is,
how deep it lies buried,
how far from mortal sight it is plunged into the depths,
how it will admit only a few,
by how much work it is reached,
how practically no one ever succeeds,
how it is dug out with difficulty,
and then only bit by bit.”

A man comes along who knows what they’re talking about and delivers bits of truth here and there in an occulted manner, but his words were formulated for the audience he was speaking to, and not for a civilization and culture 2000 years ago. So with this assistance, the tiny percent of Christians who also identified as Mormons are delivered words, and then 0.01% of that already tiny pool were able to pick out truths that enables them to emerge from a prison into light.

If you were trying to create a system to get as many people to repent as possible, this isn’t it. However, If you were trying to make it as difficult as possible, this is how you do it.

One writer described the reasoning, saying that the purpose of the earth was to create darkness, to create difficult situations, and having the whole world repent would thwart the school of darkness designed to bring men under condemnation and despair.

“As we explained in Book I, the real purpose of earth life was to enable us to experience the opposite to heaven so that we could then comprehend heaven. This earth is about the fall of mankind. Experiencing the fall is about darkness and sin, the opposite to light and righteousness.

“Without darkness covering the earth, the school of darkness would fail.  So here is the key to understanding about God’s secrecy IF YOU KNEW THE END BEFORE THE END, THE  BEGINNING WOULD NOT WORK! It is that simple. You are coming near the end when you leave the tree of knowledge and start through the flaming sword.

“We have all had the experience of telling others about a great movie. We are tempted to share the amazing ending, but we know that if we did, we would take away the greatest value of the movie for them [the suspense, terror and other devastating drama]. That is the way with life. It is designed so that the light shines in darkness, but the darkness must not comprehend the light until the darkness has done its work.

“God assures us that He knows the whole story. But, by necessity, He is very careful about revealing how life is all going to work out for the good of all! As Nephi was told, ‘The Lord knoweth ALL THINGS FROM THE BEGINNING, wherefore, he prepareth a way to accomplish all His works among the children of men.’ (1 Nephi 9:6)

“Once we see the purpose of darkness, even logically, we can see that if God let everyone discover the light prematurely, the school of darkness would be over. That is why the tree of life is protected by the flaming sword and iron rod. That is why those who do wake up have been put under restraint.”

Having come out of this difficulty taught me many lessons, some of which had to be learned over and over in different and more difficult circumstances. These might be called keys of knowledge, which allow a person to pass the doors or obstacles placed in your way in order to enter heaven (Mormons have a saying about angels which stand as sentinels, who demand signs and tokens to allow you to pass on your way into heaven). Most of the keys I obtained were regarding how to identify a true and false teacher, including realizing that a false teacher can unwittingly utter truths, because they’re simply repeating something they don’t understand.

In 1917 Russia was overthrown by Western funded Marxists. This anti-god, anti-morality, agenda resulted in millions of their citizens starving to death; tens of millions more of their citizens were murdered outright.

In 1930 the American-funded Bolshevik war against religion destroyed many churches all across the country. They bombed the beautiful St. Petersburg church and in 1932 it became a garbage dump.

At some point the Russians woke up and regained control over their country, reclaiming it from the West. Today Putin openly mocks the West’s inability to determine the difference between males and females and other sexual perversions.

Beginning in the 70’s, the “Church of Savior of the Spilled Blood” as it is known, was restored over several decades, reopening in 1997. The church is embellished with Topaz, Lazurite, Jasper and other precious stones. The interior walls and ceilings are completely covered in mosaics of intricately detailed Biblical scenes. It’s like a sight out of a fairytale. For many Russians the renovations and restorations in the country help them remember their pre-communist past.

I celebrate their independence with them and for me, it’s a symbol of what could be, if the willing and complicit subjects of the New World Order would wake up, see their worth and regain their own sovereignty.

I just got back my HTMA (hair tissue mineral analysis) and I’m shocked. I am not shocked by the results. Some of them I already knew due to years long research and my own attempts to try and help myself. I knew that I was in an exhaustion stage of stress, I knew that I was so mineral deficient that I would be categorized as the 4 lows pattern. I knew that I was no longer metabolizing and had gone into catabolism at some point. I knew I had exhausted my fight or flight and was stuck in my parasympathetic system. I knew I had undergone severe traumas as my life experience.

What shocked me, what shook me to my core, what had me triggered and crying last night as I worked it all out while tapping with Brad, was the fact that an unknown doctor, someone who has never seen my face, heard my voice, or had any knowledge of me outside of the fact that my name is Leslie Burnett, I am 42 years old, and he was holding a small piece of a brown hair sample!!!!! knew me. By only looking at my hair, he knew me.

And yet he knew me. He saw all of these things in a few strands of my hair. Yet he saw more. He knew my oxidation rate as a mixed oxidizer. He knew I had severe inversion that was trauma related. He knew that my thyroid is actually a little overactive while my adrenals had resulted in complete burnout.

But this is what got me, and I was totally shook. He KNEW that I have a spiritual defensive pattern. How could he know the depths of my spiritual trauma when no one who knows me can even comprehend how devastating the effects have been???

Then Micah teased me about comments my niece has made about my weight, that I need to just “eat less and exercise more”. And that was what shook the fuck out of me. I’m certain that I needed that trigger so I could do such a great tapping session with Brad so I could see the Glory of God in all things. My mind, soul, and spirit reels that my parents do not know me even on a surface level. That my sisters invalidate my experiences and are not my friends. That my siblings, nieces, nephews – that I am almost completely not even a member of that family, though somehow flesh and blood. In an email from my Dad after Mother’s Day, sent to shame me for my not contacting my Mom this year, my Dad told me that all of my negativity was not “good for my health”. In all actuality I’m beyond grateful for the intense hatred that I experienced towards my parents so that I could be shocked enough to see things how they truly are. Emotions are neither good nor bad, they are an integral part of our humanity and can be life saving if acted on appropriately. Actually, my weight gain is a desperate attempt by my body to hang on to life and keep on going, to keep me at least walking in the tunnel of death (what this doctor calls the 4 lows pattern of mineral deficiency and toxicity) and not fully just die, likely of cancer. I had no idea but living in the parasympathetic means you just constantly pee your magnesium out. So …. supplements have been good, but there are deeper roots to address.

I’m so thankful to Elizabeth Murphy who posted a quote from Dr. Paul Eck on my crunchy and pharma free group. I’m on a nutritional balancing program now. I’ve been healing these last several years, now I can speed up the process.

But the whole hair sample knowing of me has me back in a place where I was at several years ago. I was spiritual discerning some trauma inducing things when I had a vision (in the middle of the day, wide awake, walking in my yard after a workout session) of Jesus Christ hanging on the cross and I was there. Time had lost its meaning and I was a personal part of my saviors experience as he hung on the cross 2,000 years ago. He knew me. I looked, a deep penetrating looked, into the eyes of Christ and I saw myself reflected back at me.

I am known. I am known. And once again in 2020 I am known. I must continue deep on my journey and know myself.

“I was not born to be forced. I shall breathe after my own fashion.”
–Henry David Thoreau

“No zephyr of doubt ruffles the calm, smooth, viscous surface of Lake Consensus, that bottomless pool where Church of Progress (un)faithful go for solace, baptism, and to pledge undying allegiance to the Great God Status Quo (this act of ritual intellectual servitude is called, in the quaint terminology peculiar to their cult, ‘Critical Thinking’ and sometimes even ‘Reason’.)” –John Anthony West

“When the person is determined to search, it could be considered a knighthood. The knight fights for and saves the maiden who is in the hands of the villain. The maiden was the soul, which is always in the hands of the villain until the individual redeems himself.” –Manly P. Hall

My son stumbled on this after our conversation about it. It states that the signs, symbols and seals are not intrinsically magical, or ordained by heaven, such that they are a recipe for invoking divine action, but rather objects in which to assist faith.

“Now you must know that angelical spirits seeing they are of a pure intellect, and altogether incorporeal, are not marked with any marks or characters, and pingible figures, or any other human signs; but we not knowing their essence, or quality, do from their names, or works, or otherwise, according to our fancies devote and consecrate to them figures, and marks, by which we cannot any way compel them to us, but by which we rise up to them; as not to be known by such characters, and figures.

“And first of all we do set our senses both inward and outward, upon them; then by a certain admiration of our reason we are induced to a religious veneration of them, and then are wrapt with our whole mind into an ecstatical adoration. and then with a wonderful belief, an undoubted hope, quickening love, we calling upon them in spirit, and truth, by true names and characters do obtain from them that virtue, or power which we desire.”

The Three Books of Occult Philosohy, Book III, chapter XXX, pg 562

The first night I was in the hospital with Joshua we laid down together in the hospital bed and Josh pressed his small body up tight and close to mine. My heart was so full and pure love flowed from my body. My mind was filled with the praise to God for every last moment I had been given as a mother to this child up until that very moment. Life is so beautiful and precious, I was/am thankful for every little bit of it that God grants me.

Coming home I was hit with an intense heaviness that was over taking me. I was attempting to listen to my friend chatter about different things and suddenly I just told her, “I can’t”. I thought that was it but she instantly knew that my despondency wasn’t me and she asked for permission to pray for me. I told her yes and mentally and physically checked out and went to try and take care of myself after sleeping over 14 hours and constant weeping the few hours I was awake. As I went to the kitchen for a drink I saw some garbage, used napkins and bread twists ties the kids didn’t throw away, and thought, “I can clean this”. I got my drink and then saw some scattered dishes on the table and counter. I thought,”I’ll clear these up”. Slowly, one thing lead to another and I had washed the dishes and cleaned the entire kitchen. I was cheerful and thinking about the kids. I remembered then Jen had prayed for me and I saw she had sent messages to my phone. She had prayed intercession on my behalf (LDS may use the terminology cast out), and I had truly felt my burden lifted without knowing it.

That day I grew into true joy, and that joy and excitement for life has stayed. I feel so grateful for my life’s journey, good or bad, and thankful for the attempts to try to be my best self in the moment whatever the circumstances. ❤️🦋🦄🌈

My perfection is learning that my life is perfectly framed for my own unique needs, and my experiencing that moment and allowing whatever part of myself the experience produces IS perfect and perfectly teaching me. I am medicine.