Yesterday I was listening to Mythology and Western civilization lecture 5 Cicero and the natural law, from Liberty Classroom. The professor did not actually come out and say it, but was quite clear that the American republic is dead, the spirit of constitutional republicanism was believed by those living at the time to have died by 1805. The form of the constitutional republic has died at some point too though I can’t say when. But I’d never actually allowed myself to let it sink in, to believe it to be true, or heard the idea as thought of and conceived by another. Suddenly I felt tremendous relief, such a horrible weight lifted from my shoulders. When Micah and I first woke up to our awful situation we naively believed others would want to know and be awoken too. Then we felt that we need to fight to try and save the constitution, but after a few years the realization dawned on us that no one else wanted to do it, and that, and this was slower for me, that there was nothing worth saving anymore anyway. Now, with the realization that America as myth, the ideal constitutional form of government, is quite dead, that burden to save her is gone.
Perhaps the most relieving feeling of all is that I can acknowledge out loud that we currently, already, live in a despotic government. There is no reason to worry and fret and make myself ill over some future horrible event when I can realize it has already happened and somehow, in a simple way, we are living our lives as joyfully through as we can. The future has already happened.
I saw a cars bumper sticker this morning and it something to do with America. It was the persons idea of an imaginary America that is only dreamt of, and I knew that those dreams exist and are real, in different individual dreams, of what America can and ought to be. It’s all imaginary, and we are all in a deep deep sleep ….. so frequently a nightmare.
Breathings 